katnmouse

I am truly inspired!  So simple yet WOW such a message!....of course it's funny too :)

i am not sure what's up? lots of crazy things happening sure....that's life.....but it's that feeling like things aren't "fitting" correctly - ya know what i mean? like something is wrong but ya just can't put your finger on it.....like there is no connection with anyone or anything?......i think that's what scares me.....no connection.....things feel all muttled!  Left right?.......not so much up/down.....just flat.......just finished a full moon so i know folks have been out of sorts but this is lasting quite awhile......hope this clears before "Thunder".......

I was so very proud of my boy this weekend - smashedagainst 
He was on display for many to see at an anal workshop. He is so beautiful and has so much to give.  Many get to see him in compromising situations.  I originally thought that most of all the fuss was physical.  But this weekend when spontaneously after the workshop we had a special request for some watersports in the bathtub - what started out as one very funny instructor quickly turned into a line at the bathroom door for the next 6 people to try.  I found it very ironic that none of the boys from the audience stayed to partake but all the ladies couldn't resist. I said to myself - hey oh i want to see the display and then quickly realized that these were strangers and probably might not appreciate the public display were I to open the door.  So I waited outside with the "line" of eager beavers (pun intended :))  But what I realized that night after breaking several cherries was that he was so absolutely beautiful, pure, and honest of heart. He truly loves to make others happy and in that moment I was like a proud mama watching her baby walk for the first time.  But in that same thought i realized that he was like the pope in the vatican - he cleansed these folks - he gave them an experience that transcended the physical by creating a safe space for them to be completely themselves!  One woman came out and said, "I can't believe I did that - i didn't think i could pee - but then it started and I saw how happy he was and then I didn't want to stop - it was like OH YEAH!"  This woman who by all intensive purposes people would consider to be a bottom/submissive switched on a dime - how awesome was that - how fluid - no boundaries - no labels - no judgement - a moment that none of us could put a label on and that we all shared through the heart and soul.  I am so proud of him - i love him so much - i am so blessed to have him in my life and i think everyone should know what a masterpiece he truly is!

......so maybe someone can clear this up for me because i guess i am a bit naive and new to this whole "primary" "secondary" thing....

....does it mean that you are Primary or Secondary if you request to have a "date" sometime the next week and you get told that maybe we can do it but i have a lot of work and stuff - "we see" is the basic answer.........

.......does it mean that you are Primary or Secondary when that person then states "you don't mind if i have coffee this week with so and so - right?".....

.....my answer was "no of course not"...because otherwise i am the bitchy "secondary"...........which is ironic when someone tells you that you are the primary......

.....so really i guess my answer should have been......well if you are asking the primary then i guess we can go out on our date and work on us being primary when you decide we are actually primary again......until then i guess we are technically just "hookups - right?"

.....i guess it's easier for me to be snotty and snide here so i can let it go........

THIS IS FOR YOU MOM! I WALKED FOR BARBARA!
Hi All - just a quick thank you to everyone that supported me in the Susan G. Komen 5k walk in Balboa Park!  We did the walk in 1hr23min!  Not quite a record but check out how many folks were there!  A sea of people as far as you could see in front of us and it was the same behind us as well!  I managed to raise $339- altogether!  I think it was the most on my team!  I couldn't have done it without all the support I had from everyone!  Thanks again!  Don't forget to get your mammogram!  Hugs - Kat
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It's been too long since I posted!  There has been play on a regular basis but somehow it doesn't always seem so special when work, school, and family get in the way.  But then things calm down - or you have the right moment - or you have the right person and then it just "clicks"!  Well, tonight it was a lil slice of heaven.  Unexpected - totally not planned - started as just "hey, check out this new toy"......and then......tehe  My cute lil boy as you all know is smashedagainst  and we often use him as our whipping post and "tester" boy when things pop up here at the <HUT, HOLLOW, HANGOUT, HIDEAWAY, HABITAT>.  We don't quite have a compound as it's just cozy enough to entertain vanilla folks.....when that need arises - tehe!  Our Raven roommie happened upon a steel cane (yeah right - it's a huge hunk o' steel with a handle - look out!).  She hadn't used it yet (as she just purchased it) and had been waving it around regularly.  We had our regular nightly chat by and in the Jacuzzi (or as we like to call it the "most expensive ride at the fair"!).  We decided it was time to test the toy on smashedagainst  .  We proceed to start with his cute lil girl butt and then gave him a few good whacks on the legs....nothing really heavy as he was a bit fussy this evening :) U still cute booboo's!  I busted out my new flogger that Raven roomie just gave me!  Thanks!  and we proceeded to go to town and warm boy up!  We were talking and laughing and flogging and caning and grunting........ah....i love my life!.......as we were talking the conversation happened upon one of my new favorite toys!  Insert "muuuuuuuuaaaaaaaahhhhhhh" here! It is a blow up Anal insertible :)  You pump it up just like you get your blood pressure checked in the doctors office but it's a plug that expands in your ass.  Kewl right?  Normally it would be just enough to have that but WAIT - THERE'S MORE!  The center is hollow and there is a hollow tube that sticks out the ass like a tail.  This enables you to have the ass open and the center hole to put whatever someone might choose into the ass!  Insert "muuuuuuuuaaaaaaaahhhhhhh" here!  So of course i blow as much air into this tube as possible (i believe in carrying my own tools/toys - i.e. my fist is my cock!)!  smashedagainst  knows how much I love to play!  I am a kid in a candy store - "what does this do?" "What does that do?" button push button push :) tehe  This would also be after we wrapped his cock and balls with a leather wrap with velcro and attached a huge heavy ball weight so to where it almost hit the bed when he is on all fours.........rawr.....mmmm.......all fours.....oh wait - i digress! So we spend at least a good 20 minutes fucking with his asshole - pumping it up - letting the air out - pumping it up - blow in tube - letting the air out - blow it up - spit in some water (roflmao! gurggle gurggle gurggle!) - as i am laughing and pointing at boys' butt - like "look at how fucked up and fun this is!" all of a sudden the water I just spit into his ass comes shooting out the tube!  the look on both our faces was priceless.  Luckily we have chucks pads and towels!   And luckily the tube was pointed away from us! INSTANT ENEMA ANYONE? tehe  God - you can't write this shit!  Anyhow, when it started to get later on down the road I handed the Raven roomie the heater hose and out popped the new toy only to be replaced by my fat fisted cock! Smacked at those balls and pulled the weight off! Threw some of my favorite lube in there (Crisco) and viola!  Yes folks - i made my cute lil boy/girl smashedagainst  squirt!  He shot himself in the leg!  And Raven roomie and i glowed like proud mama's!  Thanks for instigating some "stuff" Raven roomie!  Off to the showers and sweet Crisco-ie dreams!  Thanks All!

I saw this on Midori's post and wanted to share!  everyone should be disappointed at how the world acts today!

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/europe/was-ahmet-yildiz-the-victim-of-turkeys-first-gay-honour-killing-871822.html
I just can't wrap the brain around it! unacceptable!

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wow - not sure what to write other than it has been awhile and it's 4am and I can't sleep - not sure what that's all about either....things have been super crazy lately and i don't think i have handled things well at all. have you ever had one of those times in your life where all these things coincide together and you think to yourself that you can just ride the wave out?  you know - wait a bit and then maybe the reason for all of it will become clear and then a door opens?  and you take it and you are so relieved because now you are onto the next thing?....well there are no doors opening and no windows ajar and it looks like i have a mountain of mess in front of me and i am not exactly sure where to start. i only know it's one day at a time and that's about all i can muster right now - i know a lot of folks are mad that i am not keeping in touch but i just can't do it - no more keeping up with the jones' . its all about just surviving day by day right now -on a bright note though we might be having a shiny visitor come by tomorrow - that would be great as this cute lil star has such a spirit!  i can't wait! now if i could just sleep.....
SLEEP.....WHAT'S THAT?   tehe  take care all!

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This is a great site but have your coffee in hand cuz you will be mesmerized to read!  Goodtimes!

Thanks Pam!

WOW - I am SO happy to see this part of History!  There IS hope for the future after all!

Even if you are an AI hater you will appreciate the work that went into this video! I, however, love AI - i have watched since day one (literally!) - it's my one guilty embarrassing pleasure! Everyone has one! So click and enjoy!

wow....i am not sure i am in the right state to post here or not......as i don't seem to know up from down anymore.....i am not sure if this post will do more harm than good as i am sad, angry, lost, and crazy all at the same time....i always prided myself on being able to help and to "fix" things for those that i cared about and loved......always thought i could be their protector.....even with work folks (i am a supervisor with 12 employees i care about very much)....i am a buffer, a friend, a best friend, a lover, a booboo kisser (like mom kisses the booboo's when you fall down)....but lately i feel like everything i have done - thinking it was helping and moving me in the right direction has managed to create this horrible zone like the Bermuda triangle that just fucks everything up!  The Universe saying "bob and weave kat! bob and weave!" and then everything weaves and bobs.....ya know what i'm saying?......how do you work with a boss that's stuck in "the crazy box" and a peer that is Sybil with her 13 personalities.....how do you help someone with ADD realize that the "FLY HAIRS" that drive them absolutely batshit are so beautiful because THEY are beautiful....because you love them so much it hurts....because they are your best friend and your soulmate.....how do you bring two sisters together that absolutely hate each other for no good reason......how do you explain to them and to others that there is nothing more important in the world than to focus on the father that just got diagnosed with prostate cancer?......how do you reconcile in your head and heart that you knew this was happening because you dreamt about this "terrible" thing last week when it was all happening.......you knew.....you knew...something was wrong.......and you sat on it.....why?.....because....it all has a familiar ring to it.....because....it all happened before.....it happened with mom.....my world spun out of control.....for at least three years.....because it took 7 years to figure out how to live life again after she died of breast cancer.....because you have had 7 years with out any bad dreams about mom.....because.....last week you had a dream about watching your mom be cremated......you saw in detail in your head her body get loaded.......because in your dream you screamed so loud not to do it because you felt it was a mistake and that she was still alive....that it was all wrong.....and then......then you wake up.......how to you reconcile in your head.....how do you explain this to folks......how can you tell folks that you "just know" something is terribly wrong......that you know but you want to be in denial......you want to turn the clock back.....turn the fucking clock back and do what!......what does that fucking saying mean?.......what does it ALL mean......why the fuck do we do this to ourselves......why the fuck does this always seem to happen to people that DON'T deserve it and the stupid other fucks are still running around?.......now i am just being petty......i haven't written in SO SO long because i didn't really know what to say.....because i felt like i needed to SAY something when i wrote here....that you all deserve to read something other than just my day to day drivel that's the same as your day to day drivel......but i guess that's what this forum is for......to spew all that is inside out on paper or templates to see if somehow, someway we can make sense out of the nonsensical.......i appreciate you all who read this.....i value everyone that reads this as you have touched my life in many many ways whether we are still in contact or not.....i wish i was smarter......i wish i had all the answers.....i wish that i could help make everything better for you......but most of all i wish you all the awareness to understand how precious the day to day drivel really is.................THANK YOU FOR LISTENING
"I wish I was little bit taller, I wish I was a baller..." Skee-Lo

FYI****************If you can not see the Hot Cocoa and Marshmallows entry after this POST but want to be on my TMI filter (for those brave, openminded souls) please just let me know - i just don't want to offend anyone that might currently be my friend :)  I know that some folks might not be quite so adventurous.  I am more than happy to add - the more the merrier - you all know what a freak i am and that I am kinda "switchy" when it comes to smashedagainst  it's all in good fun :) lots of hugs and kisses!